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Day: November 5, 2018

Taming the Beast

Taming the beast, what beast am I talking about?

Well, it would depend on who you ask, and how honest of a person they are.

You see, I think all of us have at least one beast, or demon, or addiction or problem that needs to be tamed. Yet so many of us try to keep that beast hidden.

I’m sure you know what I mean. To the world we have it all together, life is grand, good life, good family, happy home etc. But behind closed doors, those rosy glasses come off, the masks are removed that covers our frustrations, anger, and demons and bad habits that we tuck safely away when out in the world.

And then when all the facades are removed, what’s left? The real us, the real person, the real me. So, now do you know what I am talking about?

Can I make a confession? To the world, I appear to be a sweet, kind, charming woman that loves everybody. But my beast, as bad as I hate to admit it, is my mouth. Yes, I really am a kind, generous loving soul that loves being an encouragement to others and loves people.

But every once in a while, as bad as I hate to admit it. That ugly beast shows up usually without warning, and oh my goodness. I become anything but sweet. I so very much dislike that about myself.

Looking back throughout my life, it has always been by mouth that got me in trouble. All those school years, you guessed it, talking in class. I can’t tell you how many times my nose was stuck in that circle on the chalkboard for talking in class. Goodness, I hate to admit it, but in first grade, I got my only paddling, by one of the sweetest teachers I ever had, Mrs. Rymer. Why? For talking in the class of course, when she stepped out of the room. But there’s no doubt I deserved it.

Yes, people, when I was growing up the phrase.” spare the rod, spoil the child” had action behind it. It’s a shame it still is not in practice today. This group of kids and young adults in today’s world would be much better behaved and have respect and morals.

But anyway, back to the topic; no doubt about it, my beast is my mouth.

Even as a child and teenager at home, oh the times I got in trouble for sassing or talking back to my parents. There were a lot of spankings, nose in the cornet times, groundings and writing a 1000 times… “I will not talk back to my parents.” UGH!!!!!

Oh my goodness, me and my big mouth! Did all of that change it? No, not really, still today, I haven’t learned how to control that mouth of mine all the time.

For the most part, I am that sweet kind hearted soul that loves to be happy and make people smile. But then there’s that 4 or 5 percent of the time, when the evils witch gets flipped, and that same mouth that is so sweet one minute, turns really sour and ugly. My tongue becomes as sharp as a two-edged sword.

Please, do not for a minute think that I am proud of it; because I certainly am not. I’m morbidly ashamed of it, the cruel words, yelling, anger, very ashamed. Oh my, how embarrassed I am of the way I act at times.

So here I am bearing my soul and admitting my problem with the beast of my mouth and the cruel phrases and words that come from it at times.

Why? Because I believe when you admit things to yourself and others it puts a light on the subject; it makes you more aware of it. Yes, it’s extremely humiliating and embarrassing to say it out loud, to admit a bad habit. Goodness yes, but maybe, just maybe, that confession will help me to tame my beast.

Our mouth, our tongue I think has always been a problem for mankind. Does that make it okay for me to act in such a way? Goodness no! But its obviously a huge problem. Why do you ask?

Because the Bible is filled with verses about our mouth. How were to control our tongue, and use it to edify and not tear down and to praise and not condemn.

So if you’re like me and your beast is that Dr. Jeckyl/ Mr. Hyde mouth, I pray this blog helps you to stop and think and maybe be willing to admit it, if only to yourself, and strive to tame your beast also. I know I’m going to try hard, truthfully I have been trying, because of the conviction I feel with that evil tongue, those cruel insulting words, oh my. Should I be able to control it?

Yes. I’m reminded of a story Joyce Meyer told…. of course, this isn’t the word for word, but you’ll understand it. She said you can be home yelling and screaming with awful words flying…. the doorbell ring… you see it’s the preacher… you stop immediately, put on your happy face as if nothing is wrong and life is wonderful… open the door ever so gracefully. “Hello Pastor, so kind of you to stop by. Won’t you come in?”

Ouch…. ain’t that the truth? If we can stop our evil mouth in the presence of others, then why can’t we treat our loved ones, and those that are closest to us, with the same kindness and respect?

Certainly, something to think on, ain’t it?

You Are Never Alone

Have you ever spent time alone?  I mean yes we all love a few moments alone from time to time, some of us more than others.

But this topic is for the people that are alone, not by any decision of their own. For some, it’s because of a separation, or travels, or the services. For some, it’s because of divorce or worse yet the loss of a dear loved one. I’ve never experienced the loneliness of losing a close loved one. So I’m not even going to pretend I know how those of you reading this feel. I simply don’t. I’m sure I will at some point in my life, but I can’t start to understand that now. Just know that my heart hurts for each of you dearly.

For this blog, I’m going to talk from the experience of divorce. It’s been a long time, many years ago actually, since I was alone. But I have never forgotten how it felt, how it hurt so badly at times. Yes, I was fortunate enough to have my children with me, which was a true blessing. We all three needed each other, we clung together through those hard times. Of course, they had their school friends, I had my coworkers, we had our family, neighbors, longtime friends.

But most importantly we had our Church family and God. Both my children came to know the Lord personally during those times. Which brings me to the point of this story. You see, daytime activities and the company of others gets you through those lonely hard days. True friends that love you, and are there for you with their time, listening ears, hugs, and shoulders to cry on.

But in the stillness of the night, the house is ever so quiet. The thoughts are just flying through your head and those emotions are working overtime. Those were the times I hated the most. A lot of times those nights seemed endless, and ever so hard to get through.

In your head, you know your not really alone. You have your children, family, friends, prayer warriors but in your heart during those emotional times, you feel like you are all alone, totally completely alone. I can remember many times, just balling my eyes out to the point that it seemed there weren’t any tears left.

But then one night, one really really low bad point I had had enough. Oh, the thoughts that raced through my mind that night. I had reached my lowest point. But then it happened….. GOD intervened through the call of a friend. She told me she had been awakened from a dream, and just knew she had to call me immediately.

So at 03:00 a.m. in the morning, my phone rang, just in the nick of time, with not a moment to spare. She was on that line, telling me she didn’t know what is wrong at that moment but she knew God awakened her and she had to call me just then. Today I am so very grateful beyond words for that phone call from my dear friend that was awakened with such an urgency to call me. She spent the next four hours on the phone with me.

God used my dear friend to let me know how very much He loves me. I am so very grateful she was a woman that listened to and obeyed the Lord, so very grateful! He helped me to realize through the action and obedience of my friend, that He cared deeply for me and my children; and we were never really alone.

That night was my turning point, yes I was in Church had been all my life. I knew God, gave my heart to Him years before then. But that night, that call, that friend that was awakened by the Lord, that put those thoughts into action and called, helped me to know God on a much deeper level. I knew then I would never ever really be alone.

There are so many verses in the Bible that talks of the Lord being with us. My absolute favorite is…………..

Hebrews 13:5

Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have; for He hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

I hope you know the Lord, not just having heard of Him, or knowing Him in your head. I pray you know Him deep in your heart. That you talk with him daily, that He is your closest friend. Because when Jesus is walking with you, there is one thing for certain. You are never ever alone, never!

I’m so very glad and thankful that God loves each of us so much. Thank you, Father, for always watching over us, and being with us when we simply talk and walk with you. Help us always to listen for Your voice and obey, for we never know what soul we might be helping by listening to Your voice and being used by You. I so very much love you, Father!

Thank you, Lord!!!!!!

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